Well, for once in what seems like a horribly long time, I am happy again. And let me tell you, it's the most amazing feeling ever.

What's the cause of this sudden happiness? Getting back with my ex-boyfriend, Richard. He's simply the most amazing guy ever.

( I love how I feel when I'm with Richard...and the more I think of it, I was never in love with Jack... )

I hate my life, to be completely honest.

*I hate being single. No one seems to truly understand it, either. I'm sorry, but being with someone and having that one person who you know will always care about you, even when the rest of the world wants to stab you in the back, is simply the most amazing thing in the world. And I HATE not having it.
*I hate that I don't have many friends at all
*I hate living in this stupid little town
*I hate my grandmother, and I don't care if you think that sounds horrible, you don't know her.
*I hate that my family likes to play like we're all close and loving, but we're really don't even know each other. At least on my dad's side, they know the truth, even if they are harsh about it.
*I hate the fact that my best friend is on the verge of kicking me out of her life because, apparently, I cause too much stress on her because, apparently, she cares too much about me. Funny, I thought that's what best friends were for.
*I hate that the few friends I do seem to have...almost all seem to be drug addicts/dealers. But what can I do, my life is different now and I can't help that they're easy to relate to.
*I hate that I miss her when honestly, she's the cause of a lot of the problems I have in my life right now, but you know what, I'm not gonna lie cause I really do miss her. I miss hanging out with her and being close to her and partying with her. She was a handful, but she made my life interesting.
*I hate my job and the fact that I can't even save money because my check is so shitty
*I hate that I couldn't pay for my car outright and that it eats probably over half of my check from work every fucking week
*I hate the fact that I won't really be saving money until this summer, and even then it probably won't be as much as I'd like to
*I hate the fact that due to having a shitty job with shitty pay, I'm constantly spending money I don't really have.
*I hate that my parents chose to live in the middle of nowhere, just to be close to my grandmother, and that I have to live there most of the time and kill myself with the money it takes to go to school and work with gas prices the way they are
*Oh yeah, I hate gas prices. I wish we could go back to $1.79/gal. I miss being able to fill up my tank for 20 bucks.
*I hate the people in this town. They're rude and stuck up and so close knit to the people they know and basically unwilling to let new people in. It's ridiculous. and that's generally speaking, not everyone, cause obviously I can't account for everyone. But that's just how it is in small towns.
*I hate that I'm never really happy any more and never do anything but complain about how much my life fucking sucks. I have my happy moments, but I'm never overall happy any more.

I think that about covers it for the moment.